Heart-ache?!

ang hirap pala kapag nagustuhan mo ang isang tao dati at may maganda nang relasyon sa iba ngayon...ganito ba talaga ang feeling?...it hurts pala talaga!.. dati kasi may isang guy sa klase namin...di naman siya kagwapuhan pero ma-appeal talaga siya sa mga tao..actually, sa nasurvey ko dati noon sa klase namin, he is one of the most "crushed" guys ng mga girls sa klase namin.. i didn't expect this to happen but he actually liked me...he makes me feel especial to him...even some of the girls envied me because of him...i don't know what i should feel right now for him.. it's been 6 years ago, i guess,that these incident happened..but before i know it...it feels like it was just a minute ago... i'm sad for letting him go..i don't want to say that i loved him 'cuz i think it wasn't love..maybe because he made the very first impact about "love life" i should be happy for them now with his girlfriend because that's what's right! please help me move on about him!...i don't know how and when..but i love to have it now...i'm not desperate..i'm just lonely...lonely in everything..;( this card and teddy bear actually came from him...;(